Thursday, 1 March 2012

Not doing what's good for me again.

I haven't sat for two weeks. I've been chasing frothy bubbles in my mind again, avoiding doing what's good for me. I've squandered so much free time idling and procrastinating, and then beating myself up over it. But this is my cycle. I got into bed last night and the room was silent, as was the street outside, but the noise in my head was deafening. I'm committing myself to sit this evening. I'll report back honestly!

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  1. To quote Jomon, I hope others are also enjoying your posts that are aimed directly at me :)

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  2. Even when the world is quiet and my head is quiet its still noisey. I have tinnitus. No joke.

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  3. ...and Dogen apparently had hemorrhoids, so nothing ever perfect.

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    1. I have felt his pain. Sitting with piles is hardly bearable.

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  4. I managed to forget to sit. I'll try again tonight.

    http://www.dailymail.co.uk/debate/article-2108947/A-dazzling-barmaid-served-pint-It-I-realised-Oh-God-I-ve-given-drink-Lent.html

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  5. Thanks for the encouragement everyone :o)

    Getting out of the habit is so easy. I haven't even been to the temple of a couple of weeks, and they're not used to that. I'll be back this Sunday morning again, and that'll be me settled again.

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  6. Sometimes having a temple nearby is an excuse not to practice. I now meditate more that my temple is 500km away. Even just 10 mins a day is something. First thing I do when I get up is wash my face, brush my teeth and then sit for at least 10 mins.

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    1. My teacher impresses on me the value of daily sitting, but he also grants me the fact that I've got three kids under 7 years old. Morning sitting is not an option unfortunately. However, I could easily sit every evening after they've gone to bed, but, once I get them settled, my wife and I sit down for a cup of tea, and getting back up again can be very hard indeed. I should sit before having that cuppa.

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  7. Zafu Frog, no excuses. Just sit and cut the bullshit. Just stop making excuses, just sit.

    Best regards,
    Uku

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    1. It's 5:30am and I'm off to the zendo. No excuses this morning. Thanks Uku.

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    2. Grrreat! Thank you for your practice! It's wonderful to just let go, just doing, just acting. Action, action, action.

      Best regards,
      Uku

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  8. Or you make your Tea part of your sitting, that what I do. ;)

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    1. And when we waste endless hours browsing the internet, reading nonsense and numbing our minds, we should 'just' waste endless hours browsing the internet, reading nonsense and numbing our minds. That is true zazen!

      I'm off to do the garden.......

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  9. Just made up my mind two weeks ago to get up before I am accustomed and sit every morning for an hour. So far it is amazing - working. Yes!!! There is something new under the sun. I get up at 5:15 am, and often I find I am still going two hours later and the day has hardly begun! Yes, I am going to bed earlier, but that's not such a bad thing. ; )

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  10. P.S. I have two kids, 10 and 14, and they sleep until 6:30 am so I can at least get an hour in when they are here, but being divorced I have some days when I can sit a lot longer but I do not get up any later. Regularity is a good thing when it comes to sitting - the quality of the sitting is always different so my regular time doesn't make it seem too "ritual."

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